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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 09:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I waited trembling.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But ive been too sick for many years..

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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My life is so biszare .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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Ive learnt so much.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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She married twice! .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

It was going to be , some day.

Why did I move on so fast from a relationship that was my whole life and I was so attached, I moved on by 2 months?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We all went to grammer schools

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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I write beautiful poetry .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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Comes on , in middle age.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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I was very sick at this time too.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Why am I attracted to older men?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was scared of men, in general

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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So whats the point in blame.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I think the readers, may guess!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Im still living with it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He knew the spot.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I said to her

Who then, do I blame.?

As i do to all so called friends.?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

When she asked me how she looked .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And i lived it daily.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

What did i know ?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I couldn’t, believe it.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She loved him until the end.

I never cut or harmed myself..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I will be 64.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But it wasn’t much.

I don,t even have a pension.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She was in good health!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was 9 years of age.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My family never makes their pension either.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Was to survive, this bastard.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She wouldn,t have been !

He was dying to do it , i knew.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

All the time i was locked up.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But, we were locked up after school.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Why did i forgive my father ?

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I could never make a relationship work though!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Would this be the day?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She found it foreign!.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I have no regrets .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

This is soul school!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

One cannot live in the past .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Put me off passion for life!!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We were not on the streets..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

So, i spoilt her more .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was seconnd youngest,

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!